There are these thought loops that have been grabbing me by the head these days. And some of them, have been really intriguing.
People in romantic relationships obsess about each other. Not literally I mean, (well yeah, sometimes that too) but more on the sub conscious level. And that is great once you get serious about the person…But what happens to all those thoughts once you stop seeing each other? Do they really cease to exist even after you’ve moved on?
I felt this awkward feeling just recently… While we sat in the garden next to my place a couple of days back, a friend of mine spoke about her new love interest and she said something that made me smile. It was similar to what I had heard and observed in someone I dated until a couple of months back… And then these weird thought bubbles came pouring that evening, just like the rain did. It was nice, but disturbing.
I have so much information about the people I have dated (read : not many :P) that I think I can conjure up an entire imaginary man out of them. And since, these are all good things; it is difficult to let them out in the open. Most people end up thinking that I haven’t gotten over the past, but the truth is that I actually have.For some strange reason though,these people will always remain an integral part of my system. Even when I am not a part of theirs and that they are doing just fine, inspite of me.
There is no specific solution to these thought spinners..They are strange and sometimes, just filled with happiness. Most importantly, they are only for me to know. And some stranger who probably feels the same way I do.
Meh. Random rant.